Friday, December 23, 2011

Rough Week

My high from last week's appointment is officially over:(. Throughout this journey so far, DH and I keep saying, "atleast only one of us has fertility issues." Should have knocked on wood. We got our blood results back from the RE and I have PCOS. Now, I am well aware that this is all too common. I have heard hundreds of stories about women with PCOS who "accidentally" get pregnant with no medical intervention. I know this is not the worst thing in the infertility world- (I think azoospermia ranks up there, personally). I am aware that medicine can treat this. It's just that we already have something! I mean, for the love of all that's holy- can we get a break?

The answer is no! The day after finding out our blood results, my sister informed me that they were pregnant. I know everyone here understands so I don't need to go into detail about being happy for her, but sad for us. On top of all of this, RE wants me to lose 30 lbs. I know you can't see me, but I doubt you would think I need to lose 30. 10 probably, 15 maybe, but 30? I would be pulling out some of my clothes from 8th grade! He has me on a low carb diet, which I've done before, but it's certainly not fun.

I am just so ready for 2012- hopefully SOMETHING good will happen!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

We Are Hopeful!

Today I had my first RE appointment.  I was suuuuuper nervous about going because we have become accustomed to receiving bad news recently.  But to our surprise- we left feeling great!

RE started focusing on DH since we know there is definitely a fertility issue there.  He was appalled at the blood work results he received from DH's endocrinologist.  He specifically said, "this is 'F'ing terrible!"  RE explained that all of DH's levels were far below what he considered "normal."  He then went on to berate the urology reports- apparently, DH's testicles and prostate are the maturity of A 4 YEAR OLD!  What?!  How could the urologist have missed this? 

After the shock of that information wore off, the RE got down to business.  Both of us gave blood samples.  He ordered an MRI for DH, plus decided to put him on HCG (I totally didn't know men were put on that).  He is "cautiously optimistic" that this will jump start DH's sperm production.  In addition, it is expected to help with his depression.  We are not expecting to see normal levels of sperm, but we need 3 million to try IUI.  I mean, IUI could be a possible option for us- everyone else has told us flat out NO!  I know at this point we still have zero sperm, and there is a chance that may never change, but so far this is the best news we've heard.  Without him actually saying the words, we got the vibe that he's pretty confident he can at least find 1 for IVF- hooray, 1 sperm!!!  Seriously, we'd take it!

My ultrasound went well- all necessary parts are there and seem healthy.  Now we are just waiting on our blood results and DH's MRI.  DH will give a semen analysis in 3-4 months to see if his treatment worked.  It seems like a long time to wait, but I think it's better than making DH go through a biopsy now and most likely find nothing.